beach wheelchair last March (from snapchat- haha)
Spending almost 5 months on crutches this year taught me a whole lot (for longer distances such as airports and various other locations I was pushed in a wheel chair). I learned that most ramps are really steep for wheel chairs, even though we don’t recognize it as we walk up them. I learned that you notice a lot more when you’re forced to walk very very slowly. I learned that I’m stronger than I think and am perfectly capable of crutching myself over Mayan ruins and down dirty and very rocky and uneven roads in Mexico. I learned that the world is full of good people who will offer to carry things for you and open doors for you when you have no free hands. I also learned that there are some people who will let the door slam in your face even when you don’t have free hands to open it back up with. I learned that being able to get your own coffee should never be taken for granted. I still feel like it’s almost magical every time I can go through a food line for myself or go get myself coffee without asking someone to do it for me. I had to be so very humbled and ask for help OVER and OVER and OVER again, which is honestly quite hard for me to do. When a door slams in your face, you have two options: sit down or search for another window or a new door. Lifting has been my “window” this year, and has allowed a physical outlet for me that feels helpful. In general, I don’t post pictures of lifting progress or body changes or anything like this, but after a lot of thought, I decided to post the one below in this post. I want to show that, in the face of setbacks and injuries, sometimes a new direction is needed, but that new direction can create good things in life too.The picture on the left is from 2 weeks ago, and the picture on the right was about 3 weeks before I injured myself (and a few weeks after I started lifting). One bonus of not being able to do other forms of workouts- upper body strength!
Having POTS for the last 14 years has taught me a lot about going on in the face of physical and health issues, but this added to that learning. I wish this hadn’t ever happened, of course, but am certainly thankful for those lessons I’ve learned. And let’s face it- life is beautiful… sometimes we just have to more intentionally look for it.